269 Cuckold Lane

269 Cuckold Lane

The crumbling foundation hides deeply
in the marshy farmland of northern Illinois.
The wedding house stood with many dreams-
It’s just another story of sprawl-
for the neighbors driving by
never saw a crumble.

In-laws praised this new house of frank.
Often they mingled just above
drunken on vodka martinis and other chemistry
required by the hostess.
A habit she learned from mother’s secret
all those years ago.

Empty bedrooms decorated
for unfertilized dreams
a low count will never fill
even after many treatments later.
The missing part seeks her heart-
leads her to other beds-
a new secret role she plays.

Electronic romance late at night as he sleeps.
The Oklahoma salesman is coming to town
in few nights time. A limo ride magnificent
the miles, his company credit card
pays for the space between her legs.
Two strangers meet deep inside
and one morning soon after, she takes ill.

Through the worries,
masked with shots of sloe gin
she schemes and plans.
It will be his. I can make him believe.
The fissure hides deep within.
This joy is not his.
The crimson tide flows-
tears of ache-tears of reprieve-
as dear hubby scoops another man’s
dead charity out of her gory bowl.

The Family Secret: Chapter 3 The Murder

The hospital Don Juan was days away from marriage. In the days leading up, he was feeding on all the action he could, including pleasing Roy's wife.

Roy fought with what shall he do for these same days, and he decided he would confront her at work. He drove to the north side hospital in the early spring morning. He watched the numbers rotate slowly on his Dodge chromatic clock that sat adjacent to the glove box. He eventually found the parking space.

He walked up to her floor and looked around for her. She was no where to be found.

Inside a closed hospital room, she let her hospital lover in one more time, and he thrusted inside of her at a frantic rate as she was pushed up against the wall. She let out a moan, and pushed him away almost scared they were going to get caught. He tried to force her back, and she slapped him, pulled up her panties and rushed out of the room. 

She caught Roy from her left side, and she hesitated. The hospital lover came out of the door sooner than expected. Roy knew, and rushed off.

Word got around quickly at the hospital and reached a jealous nurse whose heart was crushed. She thought he loved her, but she was just a number. 

The next night, the jealous broken hearted nurse met the hospital lover one final time. As he pulled her panties down, she removed a surgical knife from her pocket, and slashed his neck. He was left do die.

In a panic, she rushed out of the room and left the hospital. A few hours later she was arrested, and another broken heart was born.

The Family Secret: Chapter 2 Roy

Roy suffered from leg problems all of his life. During his childhood, everyone made fun of him. He brought his victimization into his adult life, and it made him mean, evil, and very jealous. He was very possessive of his young nurse bride, and when he was away, she liked to play.

He was your typical travelling salesman in the pharmaceutical business. He was on the road more than he was home, so she would get very board and needy while he was gone. She justified her actions with her hospital liaison to get her nightly fix on the hospital's clock. One night they got messy, and his big load ran down her leg onto the panties that were still attached to one ankle. Prior to this, she only had to deal with minimal amounts of body fluids. 

She tried to clean it up as much as possible, but it crusted hard onto her black panties. She wasn't worried. He was on the road for another couple of days.

She drove home early the next morning. Her legs were tired from making her round from patient to patient. As she got to their northside home, his Oldsmobile was sitting in the driveway. She started to panic, and then she gained her composure. She would say hello, and then let him know she was very tired. She would undress, cover her clothes deep in the hamper, and make sure the stained panties were hidden deeply. She would do the laundry as soon as she got him occupied.

Jealous Roy wanted to spend time with his wife, so she went to bed to rid herself of him. As she slept he went digging to find the stiff stained fabric on a pair of panties he bought her a few months prior. His heart raged, but he wasn't going to let on just yet.

The Family Secret: Chapter 1 The Graveyard Shift Nurses

He was smooth, pure 70s sexuality resembling Neil Diamond, and he made the rounds at the local hospital. From floor to floor, he knew how what each nurse wanted when they would meet him in the empty hospital rooms during the graveyard shift.

When he wasn't working at, or is that working the nurses at the hospital, he promised himself a woman who worked at a local denstist office in town. She would never smell the odor of the latest nurse when he would come home in the morning. She already left for work.

More than one nurse fell for him, but they all lived on separate floors. The nurse on the second floor never missed Sunday services at her small church, and she fell for him. She didn't fall the hardest.

She would meet him anywhere the opportunity existed, pull down her panties, allowing him to push inside underneath her white nurses dress. With each new meeting, they took more risks. Each time she would rush out of the room, a look of guilt, wiping the sweat from her brow, and she rushed into the bathroom to quickly clean up underneath her wet panties.

Back home, a world full of excuses and a medical condition, kept this young nurse from receiving the experimental fun she got at work. He was the jealous type, and would soon suspect that his young wife wasn't faithful.

The Trophy: Chapter 22, The Bicycle

Aimee and I had been having talks about drinking, and doing positive things in her life to help her overcome drinking.  I used to weigh right at 300 pounds, and I had an addiction to eating.  I rediscovered cycling in my life in order to take the weight off and keep it off.  I suggested to Aimee that a road bike may help her believe in herself like it did for me.  I had suggested getting her a road bike, and since the middle of February, we found ourselves looking for bikes for her.

On March 7, 2003, we were supposed to go see a local charity production of Cinderella.  I was working with two very tough doctors, and I was running late to pick Aimee up for the play.  I picked her up, and she was in another drunken state.  We started to drive to Aurora.  By the time we got to Eola Road, she decided she didn't want to go because we were running late.  I knew that it probably was because she was drinking. So we turned around.   I had a very busy day at work that day, and needed to eat.  We made our way back to Route 59, and stopped at the Meier convenient store.  I went in to get something to eat, and Aimee went in to use the restroom.  I watched her walk to the restroom, and she was so uncoordinated; not even close to a straight line.  Her walk was so sloppy.  My heart was becoming more sad by her drinking.  I didn't say anything that night.  I was just very disappointed in her.  She stayed in the bathroom long enough for me to down a hot dog, drink a diet Pepsi, and eat a bag of M&Ms.  My thoughts were wondering if I could save her.  Nothing I was saying to her or doing was getting through.  Her drinking was increasing.  I decided at that point that the best thing to do was try to promote a healthier lifestyle by doing active things.

March 13, 2003

On the same afternoon that Dr. Bob was taking care of Aimee, I was at Village Cycle putting a bike on layaway for her.  I put a deposit down.  I tried calling several times that afternoon, but I didn't get an answer.  I wonder why?  I finally got a hold of her after 4:00.  I told her that I had put a brand new yellow Felt road bike on lay away for her, and I wanted her to take a look at it.  I was so excited.  I asked her to go that night.  I went and picked her up, and we went to Village Cycle.  Aimee had been drinking before I picked her up.  I could tell in her facial expressions, and I could smell it on her breath.  I took her anyway.  Chase, my friend and owner of Village Cycle,  saw me walk in the store with Aimee, and immediately gave us attention.  He fitted Aimee.  I was embarrassed, because she was drunk.  I had mentioned to Chase earlier that day why I wanted the bike, and if he felt it would help her out.  He let her take it for a test ride around the parking lot.  She was all over the place on the bike because she had been drinking.  I was really worried she was going to wreck it, so I tried not to encourage her riding it very much.

She decided she wanted it.  It was going to be a nice weekend in Chicago for March, and she was eager to get the bike.  I told her I would have to wait on my commission check to get it out of layaway, so she put it on her Discover card.  We were riding by the weekend.

From: Aimee 

Date: Saturday, March 15, 2003 15:29:31 

To: Lane 

Subject: Cycling 

  

  

Thank you for the bike!!  I had a very good time riding with you...I know it can not be anything but beneficial for both of us.  I feel proud of myself, sore, but proud.  It feels good to push yourself no matter what.  I feel very positive and alive.  Thank you...that is the most incredible gift anyone has ever given me.  You have given me something to challenge myself...strive for...and to begin to believe in myself again.

I love you more today then ever.  You have been so very supportive to me. 

I am so lucky to have you!

Aimee 

 

The rides made Aimee feel positive, although it didn't stop the drinking.  Had I known what went on at the apartment earlier that day, I would have never have thought about getting the bike.

Luckily, I was misinformed about the commission schedule at work, and my commission check was delayed one month.  I felt really bad telling Aimee this, I would have to wait to pay her Discover Card.  I felt like I was letting her down.  She was very understanding fortunately. 

Aimee and I had a promise that if one of us ever cheated, it was over.  After I found out about all the e-mails, and about Dr. Bob coming over, I decided the bicycle bill wasn't my problem anymore.  The relationship, in our terms, was over the second Dr. Bob walked into our aparment door.  Aimee misrepresented herself as still being loyal to me when we agreed to get the bike.  She was upset, but can you blame me?  Had she lived up to her promise to me, then I would have lived up to my promise and paid for the bicycle.

The Trophy: Chapter 21, Dr. Bob

My commitment to Aimee started to grow again, although I never really pulled away.  I guess you could say I walked cautiously.  We started to get very close again.  There was more passion and romance.  I made sure the cards and flowers were there again.  I held her with more passion.  She responded in the same manner.   She even booked us for a Florida vacation to celebrate our one year anniversary in September.

From: Aimee 

Date: Saturday, March 01, 2003 07:57:19 

To: Lane  

Subject: Vacation 

  

Wanna take a vacation with me to Orlando in September?  We are booked for 9/7 - 9/12 at the Hilton in the Walt Disney Resort.  You can find the website at : 

  http://www.hilton.com

  

  

Wanna join me there to celebrate our one year anniversary...in a romantic and fun place??? 

  

  

I love you! 

Aimee 

 

I wanted to help her with her drinking.  She said she needed something to make her believe in herself.  I suggested cycling.  We also decided to do some camping and in-line skating together.  I wanted to help her in so many ways, but I did what most people involved with someone with a chemical addiction problem do.  These things were positive steps though.

Her roommate and I threw her a 29th Birthday party.  We invited friends and family.  About thirty people showed up to honor her.  We decorated the house in Princess Belle from Beauty and the Beast attire, since her princess name was Belle.  Her friends Leslie and Molly were there.  My friends who she liked were there, including Mickey, Todd, and Elanor.  Tracy's family was there.  She wrote to David later saying that her Birthday was lonely.  This hurt me after all the effort we put into it.    I feel she was wanting sympathy from him, and that she was still keeping him on a string.

  

-------Original Message------- 

  

From: Aimee  

Date: Monday, March 24, 2003 11:20:51 

To: Lane  

Subject: Re: I Love You 

  

I LOVED my backpack!!!  I wanted one soooo badly!!  It was a very personal gift, because we want to hike/camp with each other so badly!!  We both like to be active and outdoors...and it will be a chance for us to get away and have romance and be ALONE!!!  I can't wait!!! 

Thank you for all the time and effort you put into my birthday...it was awesome and I felt really loved by you and Tracy!  I am so lucky to have you and Tracy as my family here...you spoil me!! 

I love you! 

Aimee

 

 

There was one thing that started changing though.  It revolved around Aimee's cell phone.  It was ringing a lot, and she wasn't taking the calls.  She always would say the call wasn't identified.  I became suspicious.  

Tracy started talking to me about her boyfriend, fearing that he wasn't faithful as ell. We both agreed to work together. Tracy placed a keylogger on bother Aimee's work computer, home computer, and her boyfriend's laptop. This would track all her website activity and keystrokes. 

Aimee had often mentioned her past with David as not being a loyal wife.  These words were ringing in my head, and I needed to know why all of a sudden she wasn't taking these phone calls in front of me. This happened several times.  I guess I knew her habits of sneaking around, since I was on the other end once.  I also knew that I was playing with fire.  She once told me about how David found out about a guy she met from Oklahoma City.  He had set the computer up to record their instant messages, and then confronted her about it. David bought into her lies about OKC.  In her opinion David was the asshole for doing this, and it wasn't the other way around for Aimee's misdoings to David.  Aimee protected her private life with very close guard.  She didn't like people prying into it, and I was about to find out why.  She also got careless one morning, and when I walked to her computer, her Yahoo Messenger was on.  It has several names listed, including mine.  I quickly wrote down the names on the messenger.  One belonged to Jerry.  I wasn't happy. She told me she stopped talking to him because of me.

From: Aimee 

Date: Monday, December 02, 2002 21:57:29 

To: Lane  

Subject: Re: You Will Never Be Alone 

  

  

I LOVE YOU MORE THEN I WORDS CAN SAY!!!  We are going to make it...you and I...we are going to be basking in the sun in Texas...in OUR home...happy...in love...close to both our families...with two or three beautiful and well-adjusted kids...who have parents who kiss and hug and embarress them to death.... 

YOU are my dream come true...and I will never hurt that....I assure you.  I have cheated before...but I have not felt good about it...I have analyzed why I cheated...because I do not want to do it with us...you and I know what we need to make us work....we need to make the other happy and make sure ourselves are happy as well...and there will be no reason to stray.  I assure you that I will give you all of me...completely...my desires are for you alone...without even a blink of an eye...all I want is you...and all I work for now is you. 

Tell me...I have been thinking of us all night...is it better for me to get out of here as soon as possible and move in with Tracy with a years lease...or stay here longer...move out by myself in the spring...and have you move in....or what.... 

I love you!!!

After the keylogging program reported to Tracy everything, we began investigating. We found a lot of interesting things.

Date: 

 Tue, 27 Nov 2001 17:19:11 -0800 (PST) 

 

From: 

  "MIKE"  

 

Subject: 

 ADOPTION INFO 

 

To: 

 "Aimee" 

HI.

Mike T. is the attorney in  Baton Rouge....225-xxx-xxxx

Nice man....... his assist is Cindy, she workd with all the girls when they are pregnant.......and then you need to call Sunny Ridge in Wheaton, they are off of butterfield rd and on Orchard Rd, just one mile west of Naperville rd and Butterfield rd near Danada Rice.........

--- Aimee wrote:

> I am all ready to go again...ha ha ha

> Thanks for all your help with the adoption stuff...I

> so appreciate it.

> 

> xoxoxo

> --- MIKE  wrote:

> > JUST a quick hi and a hug and a smile for the great morning we had!!!!!!!! and good pizza, hahaha

Have a great day, I will try you on your office phone just in case, it's just about 2pm now..

xxxx  __________________________________________________

 

Within two days, I had my answers.  I got into her secret e mail account, where numerous men were e mailing her.  That isn't what broke my heart though.  It was the fact that she invited one of these men over to the apartment that we had just decorated.  When I confronted her, she first told me that he never came over.  Then she told me that he did come over, but only stayed for 20 minutes.  What was I to believe.  I knew he had come over, because he had sent an e-mail after it happened telling her how he loved looking into her blue eyes.

From: Bob

Date: Thursday, March 13, 2003 11:22:57 

To: Aimee

Subject: Re: Morning 

I'll be in a silver 4 door Honda Accord. I'll have my cell phone on, so you can call me at 3xx-xxxx while I'm in the car if something comes up or changes. I would call you, but I want to be careful of my outgoing cell phone calls due to records. But there is no problem receiving calls. You should start looking for me after 1:30. O.K.? Relax...Dr. Bob will be there soon to make you feel better.    

>From: Aimee 

>To: Bob

>Subject: Re: Morning 

>Date: Thu, 13 Mar 2003 09:05:10 -0800 (PST) 

>Its not like I am 'sick'...just 'slow'. I am not contagious by any means and my energy level is up.... 

>ok...here you go.....your choice....my address is XXXX Branchwood Circle #XXX...Naperville.....(take I-88W to Winfield...tunr right on Diehl...turn left on Raymond....go about 1/2 mile to 1 mile to the apartment complex called 'The Ann Arbors'...turn right...follow the road the the left and follow the signs to my address." If my roommate is here...she drives a small black sportscar...two door...then...I will come out...I will look for your car...ok? If you don't see that car...just come to the door and I will let you in. 

>I am anxious now!! 

>Aimee 

> Bob wrote: 

>If you're sick, I'd rather stop by your place. You shouldn't go outside if you don't have to. Don't worry, I can be out of there in plenty of time, so I won't run into your roommate. Otherwise, the Caribou Coffee is fine too. Whatever makes you more comfortable. I can meet you at either place. 

> >From: Aimee >To: Bob >Subject: Re: Morning >Date: Thu, 13 Mar 2003 08:44:37 -0800 (PST) > > >

Well...my roommates gets home about 3:30...so maybe meeting here is not the greatest place. We can...but I may have to hide you until she goes in her room. :) >Lets see....Naperville area...hmmmm.....there is a Caribou coffee on Raymond and Ogden....any restaurant on rt. 59.....the parking lot of Cantera 30....lol....or anywhere you can think of. > 

Bob wrote: >Let me know where you're at. I can be there between 1:30 and 2 PM, if that works for you. I'm free until around 4 PM when I have to get the kids. > > > >From: Aimee 

>To: Bob >Subject: Re: Morning >Date: Thu, 13 Mar 2003 08:16:47 -0800 (PST) > > >

Lets get together! Maybe its fate I am home today...;) > 

Bob wrote: >Let me know. I'm free after lunch time. > > > >

From: Aimee >To: al haig >Subject: Re: Morning >Date: Thu! , 13 Mar 

Dr. Bob turned out to be a real piece of work.  I called the phone number from the e-mail. It was a generic recording provided by the cell phone company.  In my heart, I knew this guy was bad for everything going on in Aimee's life.  This guy obviously had a wife and kids, and was looking for some action.  Of course, I didn't want him with Aimee, but at the same time, I knew Aimee was suffering confidence issues and alcohol issues.  I figured I would give him a good scare to keep him away.  I told him I know who he is.  I know what you are doing.  I advice it to stop, or I will have to tell your wife.  A few days went by, and I eventually got a call from Dr. Bob.  He asked me why I was threatening him.  I played dumb.  Two days later he was at the Naperville Police Department telling them that I was threatening his life.  I told the office that yes I had called his cell phone.  I told him that I found out that he came into our apartment with the intentions of having an affair with my girlfriend.  I explained to the officer that Aimee was dealing with a lot of issues that included alcoholism, and that I didn't need this clown complicating things, so I threatened to tell his wife if he ever came to our apartment again.  The officer was very nice, and went to talk to Dr. Bob.  The officer came back on the line shortly, and told me he believed my story.  He said after he told Dr. Bob what I said, he went rushing out of the office furious.  

Another e mail was to David's best friend, Dino.  

I would love to meet sometime, but I am not sure how we would do that.

I am not sure what David wants...I don't even know what I want. I see the way David and his family see me and I am not sure that I can ever have the same relationship with them again. From the sounds of it, David would be happier without me...apparantly, I took away his confidence and strength.

My brother offered for me to live with him until i get started on my feet...how cool would it be to live in California!!

I do love you and always will!

Aimee

Dino wrote:

Aimee,

Hello, thanks for writing back. You have a way of sending goosebumps

through me like nobody has ever done. I am, and always will be in love with

you big time. Things happen in life for a reason, I truly believe it, and

we weren't meant to see where things could go, but it doesn't stop me from

loving you and dreaming about you. Is there any chance I could see you

again sometime, or would that be too weird for you ???? I'll always be

your friend. I may not tell people I"m in contact with you for now ( I hope

you don't mind), but that won't be forever. I have always felt bad that I

made a play for my best friends wife, but when I'm near you I can't resist

you and its like nobody else is there, if that makes any sense.

I know David still thinks there is a chance between you two. I can't

explain the coldness you sensed, but I'm a believer of senses. I know for

example that you and I could feel the chemistry big time when we were

together and everyone else is oblivious, so I know what you mean by sensing

the coldness. You and David are 2 people I care about deeply and want to be

happy, however that comes about.

I can understand why you would flee the state. The FBI sounds cool.

I'm sure you will have a lot of options whatever you choose. It would be

weird for you to be gone though, even though I only saw you a few times a

year anyway. :(

As for the baby, if its a girl it is going to be Suzanne. If its

a boy we don't know yet, lol. It's exciting though.

One other thing that I can only really talk about with you, lol. I am

craving cock really bad, lol. It's been about a year since my "experience",

and I hadn't really desired it since then, but I have an itch, lol. What do

you think ? Am I bad ? You have any friends up there who would let me suck

them off ? LOL ... You can watch if you want, LOL. I"m sorry, I digress.

Anyway, we can keep in touch if you want. If this is too awkward let me know.

Love,

Dino

p.s. My definition of passion is shaped by moments around you. Thanks. :)

He then begins to plan meeting with her in the following e mail:

Hey beautiful,

Hi, how are you ? Its me again, being my usual pain in the ass, lol.

Regarding how we can meet and be together......here are my thoughts:

One of these weekends I'll be going up to Chicago to actually go out with David ( Very ironic). I'll go up Friday after school but only go out with David on Friday or Saturday......anyway that means we can spend the other night together if you were interested. If your place doesn't work we could stay at a hotel.....just a thought. Also I will be up on Thursday May 8th to catch a flight on Friday for my brother's wedding, and returning that Monday early evening............so Thursday or Monday nights are times wecould be together...............Anyhoo, these are a few ideas, let me know if they suck. LOL

Hope all is well.

Love ya and thinking of ya,

Dino

I was very hurt.  Aimee told me how important I was, and that she would never cheat on me, and there were e-mails like this from multiple guys.  I showed this to her roommate, and we both agreed that she had some serious problems.  I felt like she had both David and I on a string.  I decided I would confront David face to face with the alcoholism and Aimee's behavior.  I knew my relationship with Aimee would be over if I did this, but we both felt like Aimee needed serious help.  We both had no clue who this person even was anymore.  

I drove over to David's office.  It was honestly the longest drive of my life.  I almost backed out, but I really felt like both of us needed to move on with our lives.  We were both caught up in this web of deceit.  

I introduced myself to David.  I told him about my past with Aimee.  I told him things I thought he should know about Aimee, and didn't, including the drinking the e mails.  Tracy continued by telling David that Amy told her that when Amy got pregnant a few months piro that it wasn't Davids, but it was the salesman from OKC. He asked what we should do, and I thought we should get her help with her drinking because I felt it was leading to some very serious issues.  David was a nice guy, and with the exception of a couple of misunderstandings I still think that.  I think he was played and still being played.  I felt really bad after meeting him, because he wasn't this jerk that Aimee sometimes painted him out to be.

U2 - One 

Is it getting better

Or do you feel the same

Will it make it easier on you now

You got someone to blame

You say...

One love

One life

When it's one need

In the night

One love

We get to share it

Leaves you baby if you

Don't care for it

Did I disappoint you

Or leave a bad taste in your mouth

You act like you never had love

And you want me to go without

Well it's...

Too late

Tonight

To drag the past out into the light

We're one, but we're not the same

We get to

Carry each other

Carry each other

One...

Have you come here for forgiveness

Have you come to raise the dead

Have you come here to play Jesus

To the lepers in your head

Did I ask too much

More than a lot

You gave me nothing

Now it's all I got

We're one

But we're not the same

Well we

Hurt each other

Then we do it again

You say

Love is a temple

Love a higher law

Love is a temple

Love the higher law

You ask me to enter

But then you make me crawl

And I can't be holding on

To what you got

When all you got is hurt

One love

One blood

One life

You got to do what you should

One life

With each other

Sisters

Brothers

One life

But we're not the same

We get to

Carry each other

Carry each other

One...life

One

The Trophy: Chapter 20, Valentines Day

Valentine's Day was coming, and Aimee wanted a romantic Valentine's Day.  She often complained of her last Valentine's Day, and how it was spent watching the Pittsburgh Penguins game.  I was planning something very special for her.

Aimee at first seemed comfortable in the apartment.  Things were going well there for her at first.  She sent me this e mail just a few days after moving in.

From: Aimee 

Date: Monday, February 03, 2003 01:08:00 PM 

To: Lane  

Subject: Hey 

  

Hey baby!  Thanks for all your help in moving and getting your friends to help out.  You have given me so much support and strength.  

I am exhausted today...physically worn out, but I know I made the right decision by moving out.  I love that apartment and what we all did to it. 

I hope you feel at home there, too...it is yours as well. 

I love you so much and it feels good to be able to move forward with our dreams.  It feels so real now. 

  

I love you so much. 

Aimee 

 

As we were settling into the apartment, Aimee's roommate brought up a bottle of peppermint schnapps to mix with her cocoa.  It was this time that I realized the drinking was going on on an almost daily basis.  I would confront Aimee, and she promised me that she had been good.  She said she was proud of herself.  However, the schnapps bottle was being emptied and replaced at an alarming rate.  To make it look like it wasn't, she would open up the second bottle and start drinking from it to make it look like the first bottle wasn't going down.  Since Aimee's roommate had just discovered she was pregnant, she wasn't drinking it.

Aimee's behavior was getting hard to deal with.  She was short with the both of us, sometimes verbally abusive.  Her roommate had just gotten a dog, and there was jealousy there too.  Aimee was making a spectacle out of herself.  We went to pick up the dog at O'Hare.  Her roommate was excited.  She let us both hold the dog, but quickly wanted her new dog back.  Aimee in a very evil voice leaned over and said this is killing me, referring to not being able to hold the dog.  Tension was building slowly in the apartment, and it would eventually blow.  One day Aimee called me upset telling me that Tracy had asked her to look after the dog.  Aimee decided that meant taking the dog to her clients house in Elgin.  Once the roommate called and found this out, she asked Aimee to take the dog home.  She never intended Aimee to take the dog out of the house.   We would later find out that Aimee would take both of Tracy's dogs, Xander and Tyson, to David's office while visiting to David.

I noticed her breath more and more.  It got to a point where Aimee wouldn't even give me the kisses that she so wanted when we met.  She knew each time we kissed, I knew.

I still wanted to let her know how special Valentine's Day was, and that I was celebrating with her.  She awoke to candy, champagne, champagne glasses with hearts on them, and a ruby ring I bought her.  She had gifts for me as well.  We both had to go to work, but we were going to get off early.  We went to dinner that night at J. Alexanders.  I then told her I had a surprise for her.  I drove her to the city, to Michigan Avenue.  We walked to the famous water tower, and I placed her in a carriage.  Tommy was the horse that pulled the carriage that night, and Aimee felt so sorry for him because it was cold outside.  We went for a carriage ride around the city.  Holding each other, trying to stay warm, but it didn't feel as close as it used to.  We went for tea afterwards, and she bought A Big Fat Greek Wedding on DVD.  We spent the rest of the evening watching it.  

I really felt the drinking was causing her to push away, because I was getting too involved.  There would be nights that I would confront her.  She would break down and cry because she was scared that she couldn't control it.  I would hold her, and try to build her up.  She continued to drink though, waking up in the middle of the night.  I would wake too some nights, and keep an eye on her.  This irritated her, but I was just worried about her.  It wasn't only putting stress on my relationship, but her roommate would ask me if she was doing anything wrong.  I usually sided with the roommate on these matters.  Aimee would say very bitter things like I hate it when she is her.  I felt really bad for her roommate, because she was being such a good friend just by moving in.

Aimee would get very sick the following weekend.  I tried to be there for her, but there was too much going on at the apartment.  Tyson, Tracy's boyfriend's dog was over as was Caesar and Sabrina (Aimee's dogs).  This was causing a lot of stress on everyone.  Aimee was sick, and I tried to be good to her, but the dogs were upsetting my mood.    I would make her soup and Gatorade, but she didn't think it was enough.  Our first real fight broke out, and it almost ended things.  It did get us back on track though, or so I thought.  We became closer.  Aimee and Lane were back.  We got out of our funk.  We went over the apartment complex's hot tub one night with a bottle of champagne, and we made love in the hot tub. It was a building that featured a glass room for the swimming pool and hot tub. I am sure people saw us as they drove to their apartments. These were the things that we did best together.  The passion started coming back.  We even started to think about having a baby.  I was hoping that would cause her to take better care of herself.

From: Aimee 

Date: Thursday, March 06, 2003 18:24:38 

To: Lane 

Subject: Re: I Love You 

  

  

You will be the best daddy and hubby ever... 

I am off the pill...so we will wait and see what the future holds for us. 

Tracy has said she is jealous of what we have and said 'at least you have a guy that loves you!'. 

She and I talked alot about kids...she is worried about getting her hair cut and stuff....UGH!!!   I want to be pregnant!!! 

Thank you for being here for me all week...you are my best friend!!! 

Aimee  

 Lane wrote: 

I will do the same for you too.  I want to be the best hubby and the best daddy I can be.  

I love you very much. 

I am off to Birthday shopping. 

Lane

  

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From: Aimee  

Date: Thursday, March 06, 2003 17:54:52 

To: Lane Bowler 

Subject: Re: I Love You 

  

I have a feeling we will bring a child in this world...I promise I will be a devoted and loving mommy...and I will take care of myself from here on out for our baby!!! 

Thanks for lunch!!! 

I love you! 

  

 Lane wrote: 

I love you more than anything in this world.  Your love brings me great happiness, and it would be beautiful for us to bring children into this world. 

Love,

Lane

  

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From: Aimee 

Date: Thursday, March 06, 2003 17:39:17 

To: Lane

Subject: I Love You 

  

Hey....I love You!!!  

You want my baby???

 

Me

 

 

Sabrina, Aimee's dog that David gave to her for graduating from Aurora University would become sick one day.  Aimee was very busy, and trying to catch up the work she missed from being sick the week before.  I told Aimee I would take Sabrina to the vet.  I took off work early one day, and ran home to get Sabrina.  I sat at the vet for almost three hours why they took a look at her.  They took x-rays and reviewed them with me.  Sabrina had swallowed something, and they were hoping she would pass it through.  They wanted to see her in a couple of days to take more x-rays.  Aimee came home from the vet, telling me that David was there with her.  She said she was scared that the vet would slip and say something about me being there a couple days earlier.  Just another sign to me that Aimee wanted to keep David on a string.  I would visit a client a couple of weeks later in Rockford, IL.  That same day, the apartment complex staff was needing to come into the building to do an annual inspection.  I would take both Caesar and Sabrina with me to Rockford.  I took both dogs for a walk in the park, and we went to McDonalds where they each had a hamburger.  Aimee would write to David that she took the dogs to Elgin with her.  I always liked Caesar.  He was like a little Marine.  Aimee would call them my step children.